Normally, I am not too worried by whatever goes on in the amazing world of the internet. I get in a debate over politics here and there, but mostly I sit on my hands and try to take whatever I see with a grain of salt. Facebook is a wonderful way to keep in touch with everybody I’ve known over the years.
A month or two ago, though, I wanted to check on a friend who has some exciting things happening soon, so I popped over to their profile to see what’s new…and I’ve apparently been defriended.
I decided maybe something had gone screwy with Facebook and thought I’d check their blog…which had been deleted.
I can’t get it out of my brain. I worry something has happened to them, but they’re still friends with some of our mutual friends. I worry that I’ve done something to make them mad, but I don’t know how to broach the topic without sounding all crazy-social-media-stalker. They’re not someone I usually socialize with, but I had some ideas for a project that would have meant seeing each other more often…and now I worry that approaching anyone else with the same idea would scare them away too.
One of the hardest things about having my best friend, Kristi, away in Africa with the Peace Corps (while I’m mentioning her, go read her amazing blog) is that I’ve had to forcibly expand my social circle. She was one of the few people I was able to hang with during the day, since most of my friends are working and thus only available in the evenings, when I have to stay home with the baby. And this defriending thing has totally shaken my confidence. I like to think I am a pretty gregarious and likeable person, but now I keep asking myself – does this person REALLY like me, or are they pretending?